Unless . . .


Song: Love Goes Without Saying

Song by: Doug Crider and Tony Haselden

Lyrics in italics, but not all italics are lyrics.



Heero lay in bed with his arms wrapped around Duo. The early morning sunlight filtering through the curtains play across their features.


He knows each time that he holds her (him)


Duo disentangles himself from Heero's arms and gets up. He runs his fingers through his hair as he heads for the bathroom for a quick shower. Sweat and other fluids still clung to his naked body. Heero turns onto his stomach, facing away from the light, still asleep, with a smile on his face.


It's love, but he's never told her (him)


The water from the shower masks Duos tears as he cleans himself of the previous night's activities. He wonders if sex is all Heero wants from him. If that was all it ever was. But none of these thoughts are new. He's thought these things since the beginning of their relationship.


He thinks that s(he) knows
He thinks that it goes without saying


Duo washes his hair quickly and quietly. He doesn't want to wake Heero. He tries not to think as he climbs out of the shower, wringing the excess water out of his hair. As he towel dries his hair, his thoughts wander back to Heero. Damn you, Heero! Why can't you just say it? Even once? He thinks as he braids his damp hair quickly and sloppily.


That's not the way that s(he) planned it


Duo had imagined a better life than this. He had expected they'd have their ups and downs, and they have. But this . . . At first he had thought that Heero was just uncomfortable say the words he longed to hear, and that he'd warm up to it eventually. But it's been so long since then.


S(he) needs to have a man that can call it by name


Duo tried hard to pry the words out of him, put to no avail. Everyday he told Heero he loved him, hoping against hope he say the same. He was always disappointed. Heero always managed to find a way to keep from saying it.


Or it's only a game that they're playing


Duo finishes drying off and gets dressed, choosing a pair of black jeans and a denim shirt that he had picked out te day before. Everything else was packed.


Unless s(he) knows
The distance grows
Because love goes without saying


Duo takes a suitcase out of the closet and sets it at the door. He grabs a few things on the dresser and puts them in his pockets. He reaches into his left breast pocket and brings out a folded piece of paper.


Tears fall on the note that s(he)'s leaving


Duo wiped the tears from his cheeks. He hadn't realized that he was crying till a few drops hit the paper. Giving Heero one last look, he leaves the note beside the alarm clock.


S(he) can't go on believing an unspoken love


Duo moves a few strands of hair from Heero's face, second thoughts welling up in his mind. He turns away, determined not to cave in. Reminding himself that he can't live like this, he picks up his suitcase and leaves the room.


It's just not enough, s(he)'s not staying


Duo walks through the kitchen, noticing that the coffee maker had started, right on time. He pauses at the fridge door and removes a photo. It was of him and Heero. They were at the circus. Trowa took the picture. Duo had his arms draped around Heero's shoulders, smiling wickedly at the camera. Heero had his arms around Duo's waist, but he was looking serenely at Duo. It was Duo's favorite picture. He put it in his pocket.


He wakes and smells the coffee


The smell of hot, fresh brewed coffee wafts through the house, waking Heero. He turns over onto his back and rubs the sleep out of his eyes. He groggily wonders what Duo's fixing for breakfast.


The clock alarm goes off, he doesn't hear the door close
Doesn't hear as love goes without saying


Duo walks out the front door as he hears the alarm go off in the bedroom. He pauses outside, taking a deep breath of the crisp morning air. Then walks over to his car. A red convertible. He tosses the suitcase into the back, then starts the car. He puts the top down and waits for the car to warm up.


Unless s(he) knows
The distance grows
Because love goes without saying


Heero hits the alarm, turning it off. His hand knocks the note off the night stand. He sits up, swinging his legs over the edge of the bed. He sees the paper between his feet and picks it up. He opens it up and reads the words so carefully written by the man he loves.


"Dear Heero,
I run, I hide, but I never lie. I can't live like this, Heero.
I need to know you love me, but you never say you do. I don't
even know if you do. They say love goes without saying. Here's
proof. Goodbye, Heero. I wish you the best.

Duo

P.s. I still love you. Catch me if you can!"


He reads the words of the letter
But just can't believe what they say


Heero hears the car rev outside and runs to the window. He leans out the window to see Duo backing out of the driveway.


He cries out "I love you, don't do this!"
But it's too late s(he)'s pulling away


"Duo!" Heero calls. "I love you! Please, don't do this!" Tears stream down his face as he watches Duo pull away with out hearing his words.


Unless s(he) knows
The distance grows
Because love goes without saying